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Mass Effect: Need by Armesan Mass Effect: Need by Armesan
EDIT: Updated version here - [link]

"Everyone needs to believe that I'm still the same. That the Commander Shepard who died two years ago has returned unscathed from the abyss.

The truth is, I'm not the same. But for the sake of my people, my crew, they can't know that I am shaken, uncertain......scared.

They need me to be strong. They need a leader who doesn't show fear. So for them, I will keep my uncertainties to myself, and be what they need."


Yep, more Mass Effect. I always thought Shepard was a bit too accepting of the whole back-from-the-dead thing. This is my foray into why that is.

Mass Effect (c) Bioware

EDIT: Holy crap thank you all for your comments and favs :D. They really mean a lot. Especially when attempting to do the more emotional and deep pieces. Many, many thanks
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hobnobrev Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2015
Accepting how exactly?

Probably a lot of desperation and then nothing admittidly, but she had the same experience when she was exposed to the beacon in ME1... it pretty much surged god knows how much power into her (which I would imagine is painful), then blew up and knocked her for six.

in ME2 she struggles for air, collapsed and went quickly unconcious due to to oxygen deprevation. at that point she would remember nothing else as she is technically "dead" at that point.

They bring her back, she's in pain, but if they hadn't said she "died" they could have probably passed off what happened as serious injury _ I can't see why she'd be upset over being "dead" other than time passing... but the majority of her crew are still alive and heck, you can hook up with your loved one if you had one. 

So, while I get your art and think its good, I feel that this is far more appropriate when she's about to face the final mission against the collectors to rescue her missing crew.
ReddofNonnac Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015
Love it, it makes her feel real.
Behellmorph Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2015
I really like the atmosphere in this illustration, no text is shown yet you clearly get the mood across. Not just with SHepard's facial expressions but the shade work too. So well done on the good job. 
RuneDathorn Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2015
that's probably why i went renegade in the second one... i wasn't really nice >< except to Tali and Garrus... well and Joker cuz its Joker!
neilacomics Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i like it.
MalcomCeasar Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
DuskNightmare0 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014
I could totally picture a love interest's shadow leaning on the doorway!
Padfoot116 Featured By Owner May 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Shepherd was the only one who could do what needed to be done and she knew it. She keep it together for the people she had already given her life to save.
Your art is what I felt like after thessia
Hermit9081 Featured By Owner May 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Shepard is human after all.
Soulfire117 Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014
Exactly what I thought about my Shep when she came back. Man, you're doing great with the deep pieces. Good work.
johnnylaw135 Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014
In about 75 words, you gave more than Bioware did in a whole game.  Excellent work.
Homefry21 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Damn man. This is awesome!
Armesan Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you :)
InfamouslyJules Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013
I love the description. I can actually see femshep saying it. In my mind, I made my Shepard feel exactly like this... because I felt like she would have been doubtful of herself but she knew her crew looked to her for guidance, and Cerberus was looking for the "old" Shepard to lead the mission, yet she was unsure of herself, but she hid it from everyone. She needed to be what they needed her to be.

That's the magic of Mass Effect, you can project your own emotions and opinions into a character. I know I would have felt exactly like this if I were in such a strange position.
battlellamma Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013
The art itself is good, it definitely conveys emotion ... but the description really makes it perfect. You ever have one of those moments wear you read something and it "sounds" like a character or person's voice in your head? Yup. Femshep's voice came through loud and clear.
darkvoice1771 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013
Loooove it! I always thought the same about Shepard with the whole coming back from the dead and how she/he took it waaay to easily.
Alidia Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Great emotion capture. I totally played my Fem Shep in the same manner, because seriously, how mentally messed up would that make you?
FallenTesla Featured By Owner May 8, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
this is awesome. those are simply the only words I can put to it. you have done Sheppard proud.
TreeWyrm Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Now this is one message I have dreaded writing. I have a *major* apology to make. I'm an admin of a Facebook page called Mass Effect Female Shepard - - and for a long time now this picture of yours has been in the albums of the page. :S

It must have been added by a previous admin prior to us bringing in the policy of adding links to originals in photo captions, and before I became the sole admin last year and brought in my own policy that no further picture would be uploaded to any album without a) reference to the artist and a link to their original in the photo caption and b) permission from the artist in question. I am so, so sorry about that.

I've really dreaded this moment because this picture has been one I admired for a very long time. You're one of the few people that makes a FemShep that doesn't look like a pretty pretty princess. She looks tough, she looks like she could do the job and she has dropped all the girly frivolousness people seem to assume a woman must carry.

Anyway I will completely understand if you want me to remove your picture from the page's albums. Until that time and should you decide otherwise, I've corrected the caption to include reference to you as artist and a link to your original here. your picture is here: [link]
Armesan Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Professional Digital Artist

First off thanks for the kind words. Even given how old this is I'm glad people still enjoy it.

As to everything else, I'll admit, I wasn't even aware it was on there. I really really appreciate the apology and you having corrected the link/credit issue. Honestly I don't have any problem with you keeping it up there. I know the internet is a big place and some people don't realize how important credit and link-backs are to relatively unknown artists like myself, so it happens and like you said, there were multiple admins involved and sometimes these things get overlooked. So again, thank you for fixing it and letting me know. I know how intimidating it can be for some to talk to artists. I myself am guilty of that sometimes, even still. And feel free to keep it up in your gallery :).
VakarianGirl Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013  Professional Writer
well done. I really like this. I, too, always felt it a bit cheesy the way Shepard was so cool with what s/he had been through. This really captures a nice, more humanized Shepard. Love it!
Ezri-Krios Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Featured. [link] :-)
Breken Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013
Damm that is deep
KingKuranes Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2013
You nailed this, it injects so much pathos into a character already filled with it. And matches the whole 'two years is a long time' theme seen throughout the game
BlackNRoses Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012
Everybody looks up to her to find their hero, but she needs one more than them.
hepcatsmeow Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is amazing.
Emotiocon13 Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Could i post this on my blog with credit to you
Armesan Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Credit and link back to this page and yes you can.
Emotiocon13 Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
urielnoone Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012
Exactely what I thought. How can one die and be still the same?
pittbull44 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2012
This work displays the tiredness/stress that Shepherd must undergo to be who everyone believes she is...a hero. Well done sir.
Emotiocon13 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Would you mind if i posted this on my blog (credit to you of course)?
Armesan Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Not at all. Just a link back in addition to source credit and it sounds good :)

Same with the other one.
Emotiocon13 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
LollyFlower Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
The lighting says everything.
By the way, I thought the same thing; she just appeared to pick up where she left off. My Shep is on the stoic side, so it worked, but underneath I always thought she must be churning. Plus she really missed Garrus, until she found him on Omega. This little scene is now part of my canon. : )
Beautiful job.
CMY187 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2012
The person who would become practically the second Messiah for the entire universe gazing at the helmet in her hands, contemplating her decision to also wear an emotional mask of her own...
I am amazed at your rendition of expressions. So simply done, yet conveying the emotions so well.

If she somehow survives the conflict that is to come, if she crawls out of the rubble with the knowledge that she will see many more sunsets before the curtain of death falls upon her...then what? What else would there be left for her?
As if being dead for two years wasn't some way, Shepard reminds me of Lina Inverse from the Slayers anime; striving on despite everything that she has been through.

But there are also other ways to portray Shepard in the game series. In a twisted way, this one is enjoyable:
"Remember that little girl who died in the crossfire? I thought that the reason why you're doing all this is so other little girls wouldn't have to die."
"Then we were thinking in different directions.
I will do whatever it takes to win this war. I will break any law, betray anyone, and I will run over anybody and anything that gets in my way. And I will kill a MILLION little girls to win."
OliveOoomph Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2011
This really draws you into Shepard's mind, very well done. Love it!
talhiri Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2011
The games allow only for so much interaction between characters or your own character, though Bioware usually does a good job. The same thought occured to me, I would figure my Shepard would have several melt-downs away in private, much more severe than punching the lockers in Mass Effect 1

wonderful picture though
hmmidontknow Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2011
Lovelovelove. The emotion is perfect.
ldf8u Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2011
This is fantastic. Wow, where to begin? The juxtaposition of the bright and dark is wonderfully symbolic and aesthetically pleasing; the contrast really defines this piece. The sharp, almost sketched lines delineate both the character and physical representation of Shepard in a way that makes her all the more identifiable and human. This piece is chalk full of symbolism--the names of her crew behind her, the setting of the weapons locker, her helmet, and the colors...Wonderful job really showcasing Shepard's strength, yet despair. Definitely favoriting this.
Ketshamine Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011
I might of said this already, but I need to say it again. Amazing piece!
DemoniqueAlma Featured By Owner May 28, 2011  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
i like it it really effect me emotionality.
Patriarch2 Featured By Owner May 25, 2011
Well done, well composed concept.
Matt561 Featured By Owner May 1, 2011
Thats pretty deep
Armesan Featured By Owner May 1, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you
JokenxD Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
The story to it is also great.
Shep is not longer the same but for the rest she have to be.
JokenxD Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
The story to it is also great.
Shep is not longer the same but for the rest she have to be.
BlazeDrgn Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2011
I really like how this shows her in a moment of vulnerability. she hardly ever, if ever, lets it slip that she worries about what might happen, she has to stay strong for the whole crew. but I'm sure just like anyone else she's turning it all over in her mind, and it shows really well here, awesome job :)
karibu0000 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2011
very expressive! :heart:
I like the sketchiness you used (or kept) in some places, I think it contributes strongly to the atmosphere.
HannFrey Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2011
Wow I never looked at it that way... great piece... conveys a mix of emotions, I love it.
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